tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-925288990167100425.post651734294009914539..comments2023-04-23T09:49:34.867-06:00Comments on My Journey Through Anorexia: my Starbucks dysfunctionDawnhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05886626878002819010noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-925288990167100425.post-41076386073069811662011-10-13T09:39:34.723-06:002011-10-13T09:39:34.723-06:00on the upside, the guilt left when I walked out of...on the upside, the guilt left when I walked out of Starbucks and no longer had to look at the person who I had to inconvenience (well, at least in my mind it was an inconvenience) to make a drink differently than they normally would. Thankfully this time the guilt was not about what I consumed but rather that I drew attention to myself and didn't just disappear into the crowd. It is a bit uncomfortable to not hide behind "normalcy", whatever that is! Thanks for the encouragement. Suddenly going to Starbucks yesterday feels like a huge step forward :)Dawnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05886626878002819010noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-925288990167100425.post-15805153998213742802011-10-12T18:01:53.852-06:002011-10-12T18:01:53.852-06:00Yay, for getting what "You" wanted and n...Yay, for getting what "You" wanted and not what the ed wanted ; ) I hope you were able to enjoy it and not let the "side order of guilt" be too loud in your head. In recovery, we need to learn to discover what foods "we" really like without the ed's influence... and then when we recognize what those foods are... give ourselves permission to have them, and not only have them but ENJOY them! And the more we do that, the less power the ed has over us. It does take time, but you WILL get there, and taking steps like you did at Starbucks is the perfect way to do that. It's easy to pick the "safe" and "normal" choices in our lives - but there is no freedom in those kinds of choices. Proud of you! ;)Jennhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10980101542608631267noreply@blogger.com