This morning I am silently cursing the breakfast that stares me down. The breakfast that is one peach slice smaller than intended because of the panic in my head.
Yesterday I silently cursed my own body. The way it bruises too easily. The way it left evidence of the anxiety that I took out on it.
I long for complete healing. To never ever have days and moments of completely overwhelming anxiety that makes eating hard and self harm easy. But since this is a journey not a destination, I will press on thankful that I am further on my journey than I was a year ago.
I know you posted this a while ago, I just found your blog. I'm in recovery from anorexia and bulimia, I hope you are doing ok.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I'm doing much better. I need to put that in words but I've been tired and haven't felt like writing. Praying you continue to find peace and healing in your recovery as well.
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