child of God, wife, mother, recovering anorexic who longs to see the beauty in herself that she sees in the world around her


So you may be wondering why I keep referring to orange thoughts, orange talking in my ear, etc.  Well orange is what I refer anorexia as.  Why orange?  Well I don't like ana, sounds like she is a great friend, someone I can trust and confide in.  She isn't.  I really never have cared for ED and I read someone else's blog once and they confirmed why.  ED sounds like a harsh task master telling you what to do.  One day I started writing the disordered thoughts in orange.  I choose orange because while it is not a totally horrible color, it is my least favorite color of the rainbow.  When I typed the disordered thoughts in orange I could identify them at a glance and seeing them in black orange and white showed me visibly how disordered and unhealthy they actually were.  So there you have it, orange is easy to identify and not a color I particularly enjoy so anorexia is now orange.