child of God, wife, mother, recovering anorexic who longs to see the beauty in herself that she sees in the world around her
Thursday, November 5, 2015
The Siren's Song
I have a confession. Recovery right now is steady because people I love deserve a recovered me not because I want recovery. I long for the sweet arms of addiction. She beckons to me like a siren promising that one night would satisfy my lust. I know it isn't true but the voice sings beautifully and I struggle to resist her pull. I just want the outside pain to match the inside pain.