The concept of intuitive eating is a really good one. I like the idea of eating when I'm hungry, giving my body what it asks for and stopping when I'm full. Here's my problem, I have ignored my hunger cues long enough that I don't think my body always does know best. Today for instance, I haven't been hungry at all. Ok, take that back. I did feel a little hungry earlier, but it felt AMAZING! I guess it is hard to trust my own body because I like the euphoria I feel right now, a euphoria induced by having not eaten today. I need to take care of my body, but I just don't feel like it. I know this won't keep feeling good, but it does now.
I feel somewhat guilty that since I'm not being checked on that I haven't been keeping my promise to Hubby. I rationalize it away but deep down, I know that the promise to eat was not a temporary one. My meals have been inconsistent and I know that. I need to want to eat for myself. Eating out of desire to make my family happy and not worried is only going to take me so far. At some point I have to be able to eat without being monitored. I usually do for a time but it is so easy to fall back into old habits and addictions.