Last week we had our first snow here. I discovered last week while I was driving home from work that my car feels far too quiet inside while driving in the snow. The silence was actually distracting so I turned on the radio. It was pleasant and it was shallow, perfect. The snow melted the next day (as usually happens here in Colorado) as did my desire for "noise" in the car. Guess what? It snowed again tonight. My car was eerily quite and I turned on the radio. Talk, commercial, not really in the mood for that song and finally KLOVE.
The music was fine for a snowy drive and so far, still shallow. But right as I was nearly home a song came on that touched my soul. There was a strange ache to feel moved by music again. So tonight's YouTube playlist was
- All of Me by Matt Hamitt
- Strong Enough by Matthew West
- Remind Me of Who I Am by Jason Gray
- Nothing is Wasted by Jason Gray
- Rest by Downhere
- You're Not Alone by Downhere
- Beautiful by Mercy Me
I had heard this song live on the radio before the single had even been released. I cried then. And I cried tonight. And I cried a little more. And I cried a little more. And I realize the reason I've been shutting out music, it makes me feel things I don't like feeling. It brings things to life in me, some of those things I prefer to keep buried. Tonight I will listen. Tonight I will feel. Tonight I will let music heal in the way that only it can.