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I'd like to say that it is incredibly difficult to want to take care of yourself when for the past 2 months everything you eat, healthy or unhealty, no matter what time of day, makes you feel incredibly sick for at least an hour after eating.  My husband decided a pregnancy test was in order because of my extreme nausea, it was negative.  I am legitimately trying right now.  I am trusting God.  And I feel awful.  I'm tired of feeling sick to my stomach after every meal and snack.  I still eat when I am hungry, just saying it's been hard especially when I know I'm going to feel yucky afterwards.  Yes, I am eating.  Yes I still trust God is bigger than my battles.  No, I am not pregnant.  And, yes, I am going to see the doctor next week.  Hopefully this will pass quickly, it is making everything in life, including desiring to eat, much more difficult.