Has your body ever tingled with disgust rather than desire?
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
I'm still struggling with my body. I'm still not quite ready for Hubby to touch me. My body physically tingles. It is not the same as when my body tingles with desire for my husband. It is a different kind of physical sensation. I don't even know how to explain it. It is definitely in my physical body but it is different from desire and passion. It is a sensation that makes me feel vulnerable rather than desirable. It is a sensation that makes me feel like everyone else is as aware of my body as I am. Is this unique to those of us who have experienced sexual trauma or do others sometimes feel like their body would cringe at the touch of a man? Not indifference towards sex, just not in the mood, too much else to do that you forget that sex actually would be nice, like every woman at some point feels, but rather complete and total aversion to sex. I know this feeling is one sexual trauma victims understand, I just wonder if it is normal for all women.