I spent quite a while in a constant state of depression and anxiety. It has only been within the last week that I have felt more alive, more like myself, and less overwhelmed. I had called my doctor to refill my anti anxiety prescription back when we were getting our new roof. Having had a couple of pretty bad panic attacks up to that point I decided that having my medication on hand again might be a good idea. My doctor never called back though which is extremely unlike her. She has never missed returning a phone call.
When the theater shooting happened I found myself having panic attacks again. I panicked when I was driving home one evening and saw police lights. I hyperventilated when I heard sirens or saw emergency vehicles speeding by. For where I live, that is a lot of fear to be living in. I live less than a mile from the police station. I live next to a highway, near a military base, and smack in between three major hospitals. I hear sirens and helicopters all the time. I see military and Flight for Life helicopters every day. To have fear and anxiety with every helicopter and every siren was not good!
I decided that it was time to go visit my doctor. She never got my message about my medication. The former medical assistant who I called my message in to, well she is the former MA, that should say it all right there. My doc did refill my medication and also recommended a supplement. The main ingredient is GABA.
I happened to have already done a lot of research on GABA and had some in my house, though I wasn't taking it regularly. I started taking it daily upon my doctor's recommendation. It is helping me so much. I've only had overwhelming anxiety once but that was when we took our kids to a theater to see Men In Black 3. I'm thinking movie theater and action movie with the entire family so soon after a movie theater shooting maybe gives reason to feel panicky. I spent the entire movie watching the exits, judging the best way out if there was an emergency and thinking how Hubby and I would be able to protect all three of our kids and get everyone out safely if a madman came barging in shooting everywhere. That was cause for the medicine!
There have been some big things happen. I have more to share but not tonight. Tonight I'm tired and really only wanted to write because I miss you guys! Hope everyone is well and I'll try to not stay away so long.