Today I spent a great day with an old friend (who I was thrilled to see looking like a woman again rather than a skeleton). We've been together since high school and been through lots of crazy stuff together. It was fun to spend the entire morning with her.
I came home to my box from my Miche party in the living room. I'm not even close to patient when it comes to new toys in my house so I tore the box open and pulled out my new purses. Soooooo cute! I love being the hostess and getting the free/discounted stuff.
My kids are in the mountains enjoying their first ever fishing trip with Grandma and Grandpa. My house was quiet. Hubby took me on a date. We had a gift card for our favorite bbq restaurant. Time with my favorite person in the world always makes for a nice evening!
So why am I so sad? I have had a fabulous day. I even enjoyed my day as it was happening, not just in thinking back on it. I have no real reason for feeling like curling up in a ball and sobbing uncontrollably. How is it possible to be completely content and in love with my life and completely broken and consumed all in the same breath? How can I enjoy life and be dissatisfied with it at the same moment? Have I finally completely lost my mind? This makes no sense to my brain.