Today was my first day at my new job. It went amazingly perfect. For accountability, I have to say that if I am not careful, this job could easily enable my e.d. Today I took a break but spent it talking to my co-worker/friend instead of eating my lunch. It was easy to do. It would be easy to continue. For those of you who just worried about me from that comment, my hubby had made dinner for him and the kids tonight and he made me a plate as well. When I got home he even heated it up for me. He's wonderful and I felt taken care of.
I really enjoy the job. It was pretty easy to pick up on what I needed to do. It seemed like everything came back to me intuitively and I was much more at ease than I thought I would be. And I remembered all over again why I love working with that girl. She is amazing.
I just need to be mindful of the fact that it could be very easy to "forget" to eat. I need to make sure that I remain intentional about recovery even at work (maybe especially at work would be a better statement). Sometimes recovery sucks. Sometimes being mindful of snares sucks. Sometimes being intentional to pursue healing not disease sucks. Sometimes wanting it bad enough to write about it so that you have accountability sucks worst of all!