child of God, wife, mother, recovering anorexic who longs to see the beauty in herself that she sees in the world around her

Monday, May 30, 2011

it is not good

Have you ever read the creation story in Genesis?  God is creating land and sea, night and day, plants, animals and people and finally  "God saw all that he had made, and it was very good." (Gen 1:31)  Did you know that there was one thing that he said "It is not good" about? 

Yep, after God made Adam He looked around and said  “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.” In all that God had created, in all that He saw to be good, He saw also that it was not good for man to be alone.  I think of this often.  God created us for community, for intimacy, for love. 

I have discovered through the years that there are a lot of lonely places in life.   Anorexia is one of them.  Depression is one of them.  Abuse is one of them.  Trauma is one of them.  Perfection is one of them.  It is so easy to isolate, to assume no one in the world understands.  But that isn't how God made us.  He made us to need each other.  He made us to support each other. 

I have to say thank you to my blogger buddies (especially to these two wonderful ladies).  I thought I was alone.  The only support I had found was supporting my disease, not my recovery.  I was very lonely.  I was sure that I was alone in the emotions of anorexia, even though I had support from others outside of the situation.  I want to thank so many of you for allowing me into your lives, for showing me your hearts, for being honest about your recovery and progress.  In doing so, you have allowed me to see that I am not and was never alone in my battle.  We are all at different stages of recovery but we all have days when we want to throw in the towel, days when we want to beat the disease more than give in to it and days when we just keep going because it is the right thing to do.

The only thing in all of creation that was not good was for man to be alone.  Thanks for showing me that I am not alone!


  1. This is so true! It's so easy for me to just get lost in myself sometimes and want to shut everyone else out, just to not have to be "on" for a little while, or to be left alone with my dysfunction. Or even simply because, like you said, I never think anyone will understand! It's times like that when I have to take a step back and say, "Who do you think you are? Why do you think these issues are so unique just to you?" I know I'm not alone, but sometimes it seems easier to be. But it's all a temporary illusion, and I'm constantly being reminded of how great it feels to have friends and accountability and support. It feels good to be heard and understood and loved unconditionally in spite of the "messiness!" So glad you've allowed all of us into your life and innermost place of being. You are amazing!

  2. I couldn't have said it better myself, Amy! :)