child of God, wife, mother, recovering anorexic who longs to see the beauty in herself that she sees in the world around her

Thursday, May 5, 2011

today's mantra

beauty is not about the size of my waist, hips, or butt.

beauty is not about the size of my waist, hips, or butt.

beauty is not about the size of my waist, hips, or butt. 

beauty is not about the size of my waist, hips, or butt.

beauty is NOT about the size of my waist, hips, or butt!
**Apply to symptoms and repeat as necessary **



Today I stand at the top of a slide trying to remind myself of the work it takes to climb back up the ladder rather than think about the exhilaration of sliding down.  This analogy will make even more sense to those of you who read Carrie's latest post about the game of Chutes and Ladders. 

My pants fit.  Something most women love, and I hate.  I am not wearing a belt.  My healthy pants fit and my healthy but on the lower end of healthy pants, were too tight this morning.  Ok, I can make it through this.  This shouldn't make me panic like it does!  It is a good thing.  My body is finally big enough for my pants!  Why did I just say it like that but what my brain heard was, "Careful, if you keep up at this rate, before too long you will be too fat for those pants." ? 

Maybe today needs to be another dress day.  Then I won't have to feel the way my body feels in pants that fit.  Sounds like a way to avoid it.  Probably not healthy.  I am going to have to face my body in clothes that fit at some point.  After all, I'm not going out shopping for bigger clothes just so that my body will feel small in them!  :)

I'm beautiful despite the size of my waist.  My body is beautiful because it is exactly how God made it to be.  Can anyone tell me how long I have to say the truth before I can actually hear and believe it?

3 comments:

  1. I really love the slide metaphor. Unfortunately, I have bno answer to your question.

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  2. by God's grace, not longer than you are able--and you will be able, one day at a time.

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  3. Missy, the metaphor was completely pirated from Carrie at ed bites but it is a good one!

    Holly, thank you. Sometimes it is good to be reminded that His grace is enough.

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